There is something come to disturb my mind (again).


Last few days, I have migraine lv 5 or so. It's really bad and I almost be brought to hospital. Although I nearly accustom to it but I still do hate it. So I decided to not even touch computer for a day and everything looked better.


After thinking about the days I have someone beside, I hardly have migraine. But after I disconnected to her, my life went worse and worse. I have migraine nearly everyday and didn't know how to spell happiness.


I discover that the one who can help me is not only myself but someone that ... love ... me. Good news is ... I found somebody special right now although I promised myself that I would not love anyone until I could build up a fortune.


I'm so sure that I will not have time for her for a year or so. What should I do, should I philander her or not? :(